I've been everywhere with you

So, I tried doing that 30 day challenge thing. It didn't work out...I've just been too busy to do almost anything lately. I haven't even been to the last three basketball games. Insanity, really. I don't even know what I do to be so busy. Anyways, I found something to blog about. If you follow me on Tumblr, then you have already viewed this (well, maybe depending on if you like to creep on all 26 pages of my Tumblr).

So here it goes...

To: You
From: Me



I have something to tell you and I can’t exactly put it into words. You know when you’re trying to think of the name of the person who sings that song that you were just listening to in the car or on the radio, but you can’t remember the name of him/her to save your life? it’s right on the tip of your tongue but you don’t even remember what it starts with and you know that as soon as someone gives you the tiniest hint it will come to your mind as if you knew it all along? that’s why I can’t tell you I love you. You haven’t given me the hint. It’s. Right. On. The. Tip. Of. My. Tongue.

It’s frustrating to think that I am so in love with you, yet I can’t even tell if you are.

Should I be able to? Should I be able to notice the way you look at me and the way that we joke around that you love me too? Are you waiting for me to say it first? Is that why you haven’t said it yet? Have you never told someone you love them? Are you never going to tell me? Will you ever love me? Am I not worthy of your love? Are all the things that we do together not perfect moments for you to tell me you love me? Do you even know what love is? Have you realized I love you? Do you know that I want you to say it? Can you tell that I love you? Do you see the way I look at you? Am I doing something wrong? Are you just waiting to leave for college as use that as an excuse as to why you never even bothered to say those three words to me? Do you know how much this means to me?

Yeah, I’m ranting about this. Yes, I love you. Yeah, I want to hear you say it.

Our time’s almost up. You leave for college in six months. That may seem like a lot of time, but it’s not. Look how fast three months flew by. We won’t even get to make it to a year before you leave. Sure we can try, but you know that stuff doesn’t work out. You’re smarter than that. You’re more logical than that.

I just, I just want to hear it from you at least once. That way I’ll know this relationship actually meant something to you. That I, myself, meant something to you because you definitely mean something to me.

More than something, actually.

Day O1

O1. I like to be different.

O2. Fight Club is my favorite movie.

O3. Local Natives is my favorite band.

O4. I read books for fun.

O5. I am a follower of Christ :)

O6. I'm all about the Roll Tide!

O7. I absolutely looooooove summertime.

O8. My dog, Kirby, is my best friend.

O9. I've never met my father.

1O. Christina means follower of Christ.

11. I am A L M O S T in love.

12. I cherish my friends.

13. I still think about you every single day.

14. My quiet times are the best for me.

15. I suck at any type of math.

Alexithymia

All I have been doing in the past few days is listening to music.

musicmusicmusicmusicmusicmusicmusicmusic.

The Cave by Mumford & Sons is currently number 1 on my Top 25 Most Played in my iTunes. Yeah, kind of awesome. It's weird though because I don't usually listen to them. In fact I hated that band the moment I heard them...so much for that.

Short blog, I know. But right now I don't have to much to say, I've just been...lovin' life.